March 30, 2015
by Sam
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Rehashing March.

Hi friends! As per usual, it’s the end of another month and I’m amazed. April! Spring! My trip home! ALL THE THINGS!

But of course, I’m going to look back at some of my favourite things in March.

I was…

Reading:

After I Do by Tyler Jenkins Reid.

After I do

I remember someone recommending it back in the day and it ended up on my Goodreads list. When I noticed it at the library I picked it up. I needed a good chick-lit book and this fit the bill nicely. 

Watching:

Game of Thrones

Game of Thrones starts again in a few weeks…so naturally I needed to rewatch season 4. 

Listening to:

I realize that everyone jumped on the Hozier bandwagon a while back, but I was a little late.

Eating:

Packed lunches.

Food prep

Although it gets repetitive, food prep definitely makes life easier.

Drinking:

Diet Dr. Pepper.

Dr Pepper

It may have replaced Coke Zero as my diet pop of choice.

Best Posts in March:

So I’m Running a Half Marathon.

Awesome

First one ever! Still excited. Still terrified.

HA Update: One Year Later.

Oscar Wilde

It’s been a year since I figured out that I had HA. So, a little update as to where things are now.

How I ‘Detox’.

health

Although I don’t believe in diets, my food habits were leaving a little something to be desired. So, I made some changes. 

When People Comment On Your Food.

it's yours

For people with eating disorders, offhand comments and conversations can be triggering. Here, I’ve got some suggestions for how to handle it.

That’s all for me today – have a good one!

<— What were some of your favourite things in March?

<— Any exciting plans for April?

<— What are you reading right now? Watching?

March 27, 2015
by Sam
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Five Things Friday 03/27/15.

Hi friends! How has your week been? Hopefully, you’ve got some fun things planned for the weekend.

Five Things Friday

But since it’s Friday…we’ll get right to it.

5 Things I’ve Eaten Lately:

1. The porchetta sandwich from Our Daily Brett in Calgary – pork, chimichurri, aioli, shredded carrot, and arugula.

porchetta

So good.

2. Flapjacked Banana Hazelnut pancakes with banana and coconut butter.

Flapjacked pancakes

Seriously can’t get enough of that flavour combo right now.

3. Dagoba 87% dark chocolate.

Dagoba

I had never tried dagoba before, but spotted it when I was exploring a health food store last week and picked it up. It tasted almost like it had been sweetened with honey? I was a fan.

4. Avocado and egg toast.

Avocado and egg toast

Duh.

5. Packed lunch – brown rice, salsa, sauteed veggies and chicken.

packed lunch

All about the tupperware.

5 Things Happening This Week:

1. 5 DAYS until my trip home. 5 days!!!! I’m so excited. You have no idea.

2. Look what I did!

Blonde and Purple

I decided it was time for a change, so I went blonder and threw some purple in there just for fun. I’m so happy with how it turned out!

3. Since I’ll be taking 14 days unpaid when I go home…I’ve been working my ass off in the meantime. I’m on day 5 of a 9-day stretch at work right now. Not exactly the best example of work/life balance but you do what you have to do.

4. Since I’ve been working so much, I’ve been doing really well at the food prep thing.

Food prep

See? Breakfast, 4 lunches, and some extras for the week. It makes life easier, although more predictable when you eat the same thing all week. But I guess you have to make sacrifices sometimes.

 5. When I make my trip home, Atticus will be coming with me. That means that I have to get him used to a crate – for a dog that’s never been in a crate before. As you can imagine, he’s not a fan. Thank god the flight is less than 4 hours long.

 5 Things I Pinned This Week:

1. Always.

No need to rush

2. It’s up to you.

decisive element

3. Are you ok with it?

greatest challenge

4. A good sappy quote.

something wild

5. This week’s drool-worthy pin: The Tipsy Whiskey Layer Cake via Buttercream Blondie.

Tipsy Whiskey

For one thing, it’s fun to say. And another: it’s booze and chocolate. yum.

That’s all for me today – have a good one!

<— What are your weekend plans?

<— Do you typically meal prep?

<— Any advice for taking a dog on a plane?

March 25, 2015
by Sam
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When People Comment On Your Food.

Last Christmas, I talked about things that you should avoid saying over the holidays, especially to people suffering or in recovery from an eating disorder/disordered eating. As awesome as it would be if everyone read similar advice and followed it, unfortunately, that’s not the case. With Easter fast approaching, there will be a lot of time spent with family, friends, and food, and people run the risk of feeling triggered or challenged when people comment on their body, appearance, or food choices. So today, I wanted to talk strategies of how to deal with this.

Eating disorders are tricky beasts, in the sense that they can take literally anything and turn it into an insult or a ‘fat’ comment. For example, is someone in recovery from an eating disorder is told that they “look so healthy!” the disordered mind can turn it into “you look healthy. Healthy = fat. God, you let yourself go.” Hell, eating disorders can even turn a comment like “your teeth are so white!” into “she commented on my teeth. Why did she comment on my teeth rather than comment on my weight? No one thinks I’m skinny anymore. I let myself go. I’m getting fat.”

See what I mean? It’s hard to avoid being triggered or challenged in these situations.

Scenario 1:

you’re in ED recovery, and someone tells you “you look healthy!” Your mind reads that as “you look fat!”

Strategy:

Try to see the comment for what it really is. You’ve been working at getting your health back, and someone noticed – that’s a great thing! Remember that healthy does not equal ‘fat’ or ‘letting yourself go’. Be proud of the progress you’ve made. But since this is triggering, smile, say “thank you” and redirect the conversation to something that has nothing to do with food, weight, or fitness.

Stronger (img source)

Scenario 2:

You’re in ED recovery or trying to build a better relationship with food, and you decide to challenge yourself with a fear food. Someone comments: “I thought you didn’t eat that sort of thing!” BAM. Motivation to challenge yourself gone.

Strategy:

Tell the person “I’m eating it today!” and go through with your challenge. Clearly, this individual does not understand how hard it is to challenge yourself with a fear food if you have a restrictive mindset. Remember why you’re challenging yourself in the first place – you want a healthy, normal relationship with what you eat. If it helps, move to an area way from this person to complete your challenge.

Something I’ve noticed over the years – people are more interested in how other people eat/exercise/other people’s weights more when they are preoccupied with their own thoughts about food and body image battles. When I was deep in my ED, I would go grocery shopping and deeply scrutinize what everyone else was putting in their carts – both out of jealously and longing (I wanted to eat what they were eating). So If people are commenting on your food choices, chances are, they’re fighting their own battles with body image and similar issues. Try to keep that in mind – their comment is more about them than it is about you. 

worst recovery days

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Scenario 3: 

People around you are engaging in ‘fat talk’ or ‘diet talk’ – “I shouldn’t have eaten that!” “I’m going to gain three pounds today!” – that sort of thing. Of course, this is triggering because you’re challenging yourself today.

Strategy:

If they’re people you feel comfortable with (parents, close friends, etc), say something along the lines of “this conversation is making me uncomfortable, can we please change the subject?” If you don’t feel comfortable saying that, the best thing to do is just walk away. Honestly, that conversation can only hurt you, so it’s best to avoid it.

It's yours

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So there you go – some possible scenarios you may run into, and how you can react to them keeping your recovery efforts intact.

That’s it for me today – have a good one!

<— Any thoughts on these possible scenarios or strategies for dealing with them?